Some1 told me: You're determined to win You wan to win you aim to win you win be4 you noe how to win
BUT you cant win.
That person told me that I didnt believe that I could win...I only believe that I could after I win...
Another person told me that : I hav a strong thinking that dun allow me to accept others word. I am to inflexible I dun believe people
My instructor told me lots of things that sounds rather true, but in my mind: I doubted and questioned it ...I didnt accept the advice...
SOme examples are: He told me to forget my own way of playing and accept wad he teaches... : I didnt feel it is a good idea, thus wont accept that as well... if i forget how I play...I dunno how to play le la... he tell me to forget...he must immediately tell me how to play mah...if nt I sure cant forget how I play 1st mah be4 he tell me the new 1...or nt I left with nth leh....
He said told me that the person improved alot...: I didnt think so..in fact I think that he didnt deproved...hahas...
He told me that I was once changed, now come back again... : I thot...gt meh...I cant rmb wad I changed... is like he shld tell me wad is it la...so vague.
He told me that people lob back full court I lose le... : I thot...the floor so slippery, if I move back...fall down le loh...and I only cant hit 2 times la..he say until like hit there I 100% lose like that...
We lost in a match, he say very hard to partner me...cant find any1 to pair with me...: is like ya that is true...but he partner me gt win mah...he infront can tap dun tap people lift I smash out, become my fault...WTH LA...
He told me make the game simple dun think too much: later he say... I must think where to hit dun anyhow hit...wth... he ar always nv fail to contradict himself...confuse me...
I rly noe he says is for my own gd...but many things he say, I just cant control to doubt it and question it and argue on it... Sry...sad for myself for unable to accept wad he says... haiz..unless he could really convince me fully...
Btw... he often tells me wad nt to do wad cannot do...I am left so blank la...I dunno wad to do... HE SHOULD TELL ME WAD TO DO INSTEAD MAH...
sometimes he tell me net...sometimes he tell me there cant net...is like so fragmentized la... he shld explain when to do this when to do that mah...
he says must hit to back hand..I always hit...he told me..dun always hit same place...wth...I rly dunno how to play le la...
he tell me the back leave to partner take...then people hit behind I nv take he say this case is mine...
waaaa....sometimes I just feel that... I DUNNO HOW TO PLAY LA....
I thank you for teaching me...I had seriously thot of everything u told me...
U noe I hav a strong thinking and nt easy to knock words into me...ya sry I cant accept anything... due to the reasons above...if u ever read this, perhaps u could convince me base on all those...
I am so glad to meet an instructor hu would tell my weakness straight to me... u shld understand that it is nt easy to change one's character... unless u can ever convince me, becox I can hardly believe myself to be wrong that is wad I am most wrong abt... Everything there is gd and bad...since i am like that ...I believe there is a gd side of me as well. therefore perhaps u shld nt change me but tell me how to change my bad side into a gd side...
Becox stealing is bad , but steal from rich giv to poor is rather GD...
I went off at
YFriday, April 10, 2009
The Owner
｡◕‿◕｡ Kenny TaN ｡◕‿◕｡ Age: 15 years old Date of Birth: April29 1994 Horoscope Sign: Taurus
Interest
｡◕‿◕｡ Badminton ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ Swimming ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ Chinese chess ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ Hear Songs ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ Go walk walk ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ Bowling ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ Talk craps ｡◕‿◕｡
Detests
｡◕‿◕｡ conflicts ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ to hate ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ Hypocrite ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ being blamed ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ boredom ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ backstabbers ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ Rules ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ insults ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ unreasonable people ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ arrogant people ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ stubborn people ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ irritating people ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ people who smokes ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ people who hates me ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ people who always late ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ people who thinks they very handsome/pretty ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ people who thinks they always rite ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ People who dont mend their words ｡◕‿◕｡
｡◕‿◕｡ Hate myself for having some of the above qualities ｡◕‿◕｡
